Somedays I want to punch my stupid self in the face. My name is Frank Lister and I feel like everything is about to come crashing down. I just said that really loud outloud and people are totally looking at me. Not the sentence about everything crashing down but I said the word THAT really loud. Sometimes at work i will just shout weird things out. For a while it was PANTS. But eventually everyone got used to hearing the word PANTS so I started saying ALIMONY, then later I would say MACARONI becasue they sound a little similar. That is to throw people off. LAtely I have been saying the word THAT. I gotta tell you that I am totally freaking out a little these days. You don;t really know me but eventually that will change and you will probably either like me a lot or not like me at all. Those are really the only 2 options, you know. You can't sort of like someone. You either like or not. Regardless, I am bugging a little. I've been listening to a lot of noise lately. not noise music but total noise. Jackhammers, constructiuon sounds, incoherent yelling, crowd yelling, clicking, static, multiple flocks of birds making their noises at the same time, TV shows played in reverse. You know normal noise shit. I found this site on the internet that is nothing but noise. Put hours of that shit on my IPOD. Crazy these electronics these days. if I was paranoid, I would think the government was watching us with them. I think there is something to be learned from noise in your head, you know? There has to be a reason for it. It can't just be...becasue. Hey, have you ever noticed how easy it is to misspell because? I always do that. I put the S before the U. So , the noise. Lately my head has been quiet which makes me a little scared since I am used to having thoughts and things ruinning through there al lthe time. So in an effort to make some positive changes this year in my life (more about that at a later time) I decided to keep the noise alive. So, I'm trying to hear something in the chaos. I guess it is a little new agey but I am trying to just be still and listen. Maybe what I need to do will come through all this nonsense. In all honesty, which is not to imply that I have been anything less than honest in thre sentences before, it has been a rough few years for me. if I feel up to it I may get into some of that stuff, not sure that I can do that right now. I'm just trying to get started. get something going again. I stopped a lot of things becasue of lack of noise. Maybe the noise turned into things. Things that became all consuming so I couldn't hear the noise anymore. Somewhere there is a guy that looks like me. Sleeping. I have to find him and wake him up and ask him what he saw all this time, while he was sleeping. Kind of like Rumplestiltskin, right? No not Rumplestiltskin. What an awesome name that is. RUMPLESTILTSKIN. Could you imagine if you named your kid that. IF I ever have a kid I'm going to call the kid, RUMPLESTILTSKIN. You know just for fun. ... I should rephrase that in an effort to be more positive. WHEN I HAVE A KID. Very good. Anyway, I'm actively looking for a guy that looks like me that has been sleeping for 12 or so years now. He was last seen in Florida without a care in the world probably dressed in a some ridiculous get up trying to get some attention becasue (there it is again) his dad may have not shown him enough.
who is that guy punching that other guy in the face?
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